#I want to remain delusional
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A Lestappen love story told through their feet, part ♾️:
📸 James Moy
#I don’t have any brain capacity left for thoughts#this is getting completely out of control#max verstappen#charles leclerc#lestappen#las vegas gp 2023#2023 lestappen highlights#shh don’t show me another angle#I want to remain delusional#thank you x
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y'know, the different factions of spn fandom on tumblr do fundamentally and vehemently disagree with each other about a lot of things, and many of the factions actively hate one another, but i just want to say for the record that i appreciate the fact that this site is not overrun with painfully hetero facebook fans. i just saw someone over there saying with their whole chest that they fully expected the finale to have dean meeting jo harvelle in heaven and them getting afterlife married, and someone else angrily responded that this was obviously never going to happen because clearly dean was still in love with lisa braeden who would therefore be his finale bride (i guess this person expected her to die in the finale somehow?), and then someone ELSE responded that they wouldn't want to see either of those things happen because they like to pretend dean is their boyfriend and it would feel like cheating(!!!!) if he ended up with one of them and they'd never be able to fantasize about him anymore. and all of these comments had over a dozen people agreeing with them.
#occasionally i venture onto facebook to see if my uncle has sent me a message#because he never got the hang of whatsapp#and there's almost always some recommended spn group at the top of my feed#today i happened to glance at the comments#truly next level amounts of delusional heteronormative nonsense honestly#even if you want to make the deeply faulty argument that dean is straight (lol)#how is anyone out there watching him not mention either of those characters for multiple years#and still believe wholeheartedly that they were his endgame love interest#the self-shipper who needs him to remain single in the show in order to have their little fantasies is a whole other issue tbh#fandom problems#idk is this#wank adjacent#???#i guess i'm being kinda judgy#oh well#i stand by my thoughts here#fandom: supernatural
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#i've connected the dots. you didn't connect shit. i've connected them. etc. etc.#don't mind me i'm just still connecting dots that may or may not come to fruition#at minimum the road is a witch trap created by rio (or someone/thing more powerful/above her)#if i have it my way agatha will have also been a work partner to rio and they set traps together#until something happened to nicholas and agatha got the darkhold#i think agatha has been on the road before. i just don't think she's walked it properly#i'm sure the reality of canon will not be all i want from it but until then i remain happily delusional#agatha all along#agatha harkness#rio vidal#agathario
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have you ever had any enha interactions? like at concerts and stuff
yes 🙂↕️ let me humble brag for a second because I got really happy remembering these :’)
last time I saw them, heeseung put his hand up to his ear in the “call me” motion (imactuallystilldead) when he passed by my section and when sunghoon walked by (when they went into the crowd) he walked past me but I waved at him to come back and he did and now we have a blurry video together with him holding my hand KFBDMANAK
the last time I was close to the stage too. jay and jungwon kept looking at me too (my friend has a video of this bc jay kept coming over to our section when and I swear we made eye contact like 3638382 times) and jungwon too. I think he was happy me and the people next to me weren’t really on our phones the whole time. jake during sound check kept interacting with my friend and I because we just screamed fuck all and had a good time and everyone around us will SILENT and STOOD STILL 😩 unfortunately very little sunoo and ni-ki interactions but I kept yelling “my sons!” whenever they danced in front of me
I have a lot of enha stories like enhypen are my forever people and for all of the drabbles I post, I really do love them and I’m grateful for everything they’ve done to and with me
also I hope I don’t come off as bragging because I’m really not trying to push these in anyone’s face I just got a rush of emotions seeing this ask :( I love you enhypen
#ask#I STILL REMEMBER#HEESEUNGS FUCKING SMIRK#LIKE IM DELUSIONAL ENLUGH BUT NOW??;?:?:?/?/!/&#im sorry sunghoon running back to hold my hand and take a video with me will be forever engrained in my brain#his cheek was so close to mine bc people were pushing him 😒#but whatever we bumped shoulders#sorry hoonie baby#jungwon laughed @ my friend bc she kept blowing him kisses throughout the show when he looked over LMFA#LMFAO*#wish I could post videos but unfortunately I want to remain anonymous here#enha are my bfs and best friends depending on who the member is#jay is so beautiful up close like goddamn…kiss me#anon
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I’m thinking about the ran-jit fight again and how u end up killing him and how it still feels. not great that you kill him, but I can kinda see it from an eyrie pov of being the one to kill him
#it’s like. they already have this rage harbored for the man#but it boils down to them being in a place in ShB where they can’t trust thancred to make the choice to kill him#even if he really could do it. eyrie doesn’t trust thancred to actually do the deed#it’s also partially because they are more than happy to have that blood on their hands#they have no qualms about taking that burden on#knowing all that they do about him it’s clear he made his choice of the world he wishes to live in#the way he wants the world to be and the ends he will go to and the people he will hurt to uphold it#there’s so much ignorance in eulmore but he knows and yet he abides in it#he willfully lives in it and carries out orders at his own behest#he fully and delusionally believes this is the best for the world#which this puts him opposed to eyrie and they have no qualms about going against someone like that#there is no saving ran’jit#eyrie has a lack of trust but they do want to keep thancred safe from that choice#which is. very older brother of eyrie and kinda a messed up mindset#but eyrie and Thancred’s relationship in ShB is all sorts of mess#but beyond Thancred it boils down to Ryne as well#they will see ran’jit dead so that she doesn’t have to make that choice#to be burdened by it#even if there still remains the burden of eyrie taking this on for her#they would see her carry many burdens but not the death of ran’jit#so in a way his death by eyrie’s hand works#which is v fun for character dynamics#but narratively I still think thancred killing him would be better#shadowbringers spoilers#oc: eyrie kisne#I fuckin love the return to eulmore#and I can forgive the stuff in the upper part of Khoulsia because it’s not super terrible bc exarch moment#bc after it’s just go go go to the end of MSQ
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So, uhh. The Sauron & Maedhros pitch pt.1, the comedic edition.
#yes I'm gonna inflict it upon the tags#silm#Maedhros#Sauron#just to be clear the goofy and pathethic one is Sauron obviously :)#pretty sure I rambled about it under one post or the other already but they do have a lot of potential#both in the comedic sense bc Sauron is just...ridiculous even if he's evil#but if one want to go the darker 'they make each other worse' route that also#idk obviously Maedhros is a better person and all but there is plenty of room for similarities between them#it is not easy to find some way to force them to interact that doesn't upend the entire plot or feels like character assassination#particularly towards Maedhros#but I like doing it#the whole 'beware what you start shipping as a joke' etc.#not that they would have anything resembling a normal relationship#obviously the moral divide is pretty significant but if you either break Maedhros down enough or get them in an environment where it doesn't#really matter such as potential divergence where both end up going to Valinor after the War of Wrath or smng#there's a chance they would get along ! (<-- delusional)#Leaving potentials aside I do feel they would conceptualize what being a leader or having power means pretty similarly#I also love the theory about Maedhros possibly being the one who introduced 'Sauron' as the most prominent name for him#both bc it mirrors Feanor naming Morgoth and bc his impact remaining in that at least until the end
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one of the reasons i don't particularly want to use dg's semi-canon real name is it also kind of ties nicely into his story w fragment. both of them have a name and a 'normal' life they left in the past because of the hellwave. we don't know and we never will know if flynn and. whoever fragment was would have gotten along but because they met when they did and as who they are it worked.
#one of the things i find personally important when writing fragments story is to highlight that#his delusion isnt... particularly a bad thing. i don't view my psychosis as a bad thing and while#the delusions i get can be upsetting and/or incredibly embarrassing i've found myself to be#somewhat proud of my psychosis? less in a... i'm happy to have it way but in an... this is a part of me way.#and i enjoy who i am. so there's no reason to truly hate this part of me.#a bit of a sidebar there but in short i want this character to be actively delusional and not#at any point try to 'fix' him or show even pity towards the state he's in. it is who he is.#and part of that for me is having him remain like that. for the events of canon at least.#hmmm... hopefully that makes a level of sense. i promise it relates to the actual post somehow.#gush:{���}
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how do you find a job when
you have no proper experience
you have no diplomas
you have no training in anything
you don't have a driving license
you need your job to be part-time but they're harder to find
you need your job to involve as little contact with customers as possible
you need a job that doesn't require you to take/make phonecalls
you have rejection sensitivity that makes you want to cry and sends you in a spiral of anxiety at the slightest negative remark from both colleague and client, even if they're not being mean about it
you have undiagnosed adhd which makes you unable to take up any training/studies because you just can't get yourself to start something that you're not deeply interested in, and even then it can still be a struggle to focus on learning/studying because your brain just Doesn't Want To no matter how much you do
you are terrified of the plague but no one else gives a shit anymore and you're too chicken to stand up for yourself over wanting to mask amongst people who will either straight up not allow it or make you feel shitty/weird for it
honestly i feel like i could've figured something out with the program the unemployment office is putting me in, i really think it could help me, but then worldwide plague denial happened, so even that program is scary and stressful now :)
the dream would be an entirely remote part-time job but they're much less common in my country, and when there's one I'm not qualified and the amount of tasks to do makes me feel super overwhelmed
#bee rants#i'm so lucky that my apartment is ours so when my dad passes away it'll be mine#but i'll still have food and bills to pay and i'll have to pay for my sister's share of the apartment so i can't stay like this forever :')#except in april i haven't had any income since october and it's the worst....i need a job#the unemployment office sent me on that one program for people with mental and/or physical disabilities and i'm gonna be given an internshi#but it's unpaid and the plague problem remains and the therapist I'm assigned to was even like 'we'll work on that' and i'm just like#I don't want to work on that????#y'all are the ones who are delusional. i'm the reasonable one for wanting to keep wearing a mask here!#i also want to finally get a diagnosis but it costs money and I'm Scared and even people in medical settings look at me weird for masking#maybe i'm just lazy and a coward and trying to find excuses
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'Suuuup!!!
I went to EC with Lena @there-is-just-me-myself-and-i on Saturday (thank you again for the ticket and the great company 🖤🖤) and it was really really fun (and really really hot holy fuck). I'm still super spent but I thought I'd post my obligatory "crowd holding up flashlights" video that I take at basically every arena show I go to hahah (it gives me goosebumps every single time)
And my ticket with a bit of the Arrow of Love heart confetti (some of which a very friendly security guy gave to me after I'd gotten hit in the head by a crowd surfer for the third time during one song lol)
Already can't wait for Hamburg <3 (where Blind Channel will be opening *distant screeching*)
#i'll either sleep of watch yesterday morning's gp#probably the gp#as far as i've heard it was carnage and boy do i want to see the reason why carlos got thrown straight out of the points#i already saw the russell-hamilton infighting only for russell to dnf like 10 laps later and for hamilton to remain second#poor charles beaching his car in literally lap one#his time this season will come#i'm sure.... or delusional#sorry for ranting about motorsports#'only leave relevant tags' nah y'all will hear literally anything from me down here
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What picture? 😭😭😭
it’s a random picture of them from behind walking
#i can’t put into words how much i hate knowing#i want to be delusional and remain in the UNknown#i muted/hid the account but i’m sure you can find it
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Every single day I wish I was on a sitcom or something so I could look into the camera like ‘do you see this shit?’ and break the fourth wall
#this is mostly in reference to my last reblog to be honest#so like my best friend (g) has this friend she’s known her entire life (we’ll call her m)#m is in love with g. has been probably the whole time. she WILL NOT admit it though#and g pretends like she doesn’t know but i’m certain that she does. she must. m does literally so much stuff for her like..#she has her by a fucking string. it’s absolutely ridiculous#m used to be really jealous of me in high school and i used to snipe back at her but now i legitimately can’t bring myself to care#they’re less insufferable to be around now but my attitude is just like.. i can’t be bothered to get in the middle of whatever this is#i am NOT making this into a bermuda triangle of toxicity. count me the fuck out. so i remain pleasant and don’t let her bait mr#*me and oftentimes i just leave if m is there so they can be weird together#but sometimes they just do stuff that is so…… like recently g was talking about moving to scotland right?#she’s not going to do it. there is literally no way on god’s green earth that she’ll do it. she doesn’t have the money#she lives with her mom in her mom’s house and her mom helps raise her baby. like unless her mom sells up and comes with she’s not going#fucking anywhere. she doesn’t work; she doesn’t have money; she can’t live in a van with a toddler. she’s fucking delusional#but tell me why M HEARD THIS AND STARTED APPLYING FOR JOBS IN SCOTLAND???#like???? you’re really planning on leaving the fucking country with her and you want to act like you’re not in love with her LMAO OKAY#she must know as well as i do that it’s simply not going to happen but she’s still making plans just in case. i’m…..#tl;dr am i the only person who sees this shit??? it’s fucking crazy#personal
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it’s not a want, it’s a need
Josh Hutcherson as Mike Schmidt Five Night's at Freddy's (2023)
#five nights at freddy's#fnaf movie#fnaf#mike schmidt#josh hutcherson#i got my tarot card read recently and she told me i have to get better at distinguishing my wants from my needs#like what the fuck does that mean#no one enlighten me let me remain delusional
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I can’t wait till me and my ex get back together
#delusional#hehe#we might not ever#but I’m remaining optimistic#I want a better life#for me#and them
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#thinking about finishing my 1d fics again and while with one super old wip i figured out how to write it sans heavy ot5 friendship dynamic#the two sequel fics for ‘swear i’ve known you since forever’ in ATSCO series…. oooh i fear i am Fucked#it’s not that i have beef with ot5 fic really it just feels weird for me personally to be writing it so#heavy handedly this many years on? and controversial take mayhaps but there are still plenty super involved ot5 fans out there putting out#mmm weird vibes? delusional even? not all of them ofc#but enough that i’ve seen especially on twitter and iii don’t want the association just bc i kept the dynamic in a fic i wrote lmao#(also i have some thoughts and opinions on things and people i did not have in the past too so! that doesn’t help)#i think for ATSCO i’m just gonna have to commit because i am Not rethinking a whole new plot for that series 4 years down the line#especially after i rewrote the whole plot like 5 times as well as the first fic in the series several more times as well…..#i’m not doing it again!! i’m not!! so if i DO finish either one of these fics specifically. please know if ot5 element stays in#moreso in ATSCO than the other one which has remained a secret 4 years on#know what i stand for and who i am… i know this matters to few but me but i’m putting it out there nonetheless#it’s still gonna be a hot minute before any fics get finished bc where my interests are rn and my focusing on art but! i stand by my word#and my fics are still intended to be completed!#(also sidenote i am. no longer replying to any update inquiries on here or ao3! i’ve already said why in the past that they#stress me out rather than encourage me so i’m gonna leave it at that! i honestly might even start to delete them from my inbox / comments#just because they get to me that bad like i literally avoid ao3 because of it so. yeah! pls don’t send me update inquiries <3)#alex talks
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Why being delusional is the best solution | IT GIRL DIARIES
"being delulu is the solulu" - a pretty bitch
In today's world, being labeled delusional may often be seen as a negative insult, usually implying someone is out of touch with reality, which isn't wrong i mean.. ,but what if i told you embracing a form of delusion could actually be a powerful tool for manifesting your goals and changing your life?
Being delusional, in a positive sense, means creating a new belief or fantasy in your mind and living as if that is your reality. Over the years, I’ve realized that this type of thinking—where you treat the fantasy you create as your true reality—can lead to life-changing transformation.
View life as a game—one where you can choose who you want to be, like changing a character in a video game. I was fat and I didn't like that so, I decided to see myself as a "skinny girl" and live out that reality. I programmed my mind to believe this new identity, and my actions followed. The mind drives our actions; once I embraced my new self-image, my choices and behaviors naturally aligned with it. Eventually, I lost the weight, and that once “delusional” thought became my reality.
The key is to truly believe in the version of yourself that you want to become. By continuously reinforcing that belief, your mind will start sending signals that influence your actions to match this new identity. Whether you aspire to be wealthy, successful, or fit, the process remains the same. Create the fantasy, immerse yourself in it, and allow it to guide your actions until it becomes your truth.
So yes, being delusional is the solution. It’s about harnessing the power of your mind to reprogram your reality. By deluding yourself into the person you want to be, your actions will start molding you into that person, whether it’s the fit version of yourself, the wealthy version, or whatever else you desire. When used intentionally, delusion isn’t madness—it’s manifestation.
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Yandere Short Stories:
Knight in Shining Armor
Yandere Monster Knight x Princess Reader
TW: delusional Yandere, Yandere behavior, kidnapping (mentioned), etc.
Ajax had always been princess (your name)’s confidant and source of solace… so why did he have her cornered on the bed of the inn? His large, muscular frame towered over her as his body trembled.
“I can’t do it… I can’t let you marry some other man.” Ajax whispered, his metal mask hiding his expression. There was no doubt in (your name)’s mind that he was shaken up about something. She had no clue why he’d be so upset about her getting married…
“Ajax, it was bound to happen eventually. It’s my duty as the kingdom’s princess-“ (your name) gasped when he closed the distance between them. Ajax’s large palms pulled her into a tight hug. The force of the hug caused them both to land on the small bed with a soft plop.
“Ajax-“ Ajax placed a finger on (your name)’s lips to pause her words.
“I won’t allow it… I won’t allow some other man to sully you.” Ajax’s deep voice made her body anxiously shake. “Not when I’ve wanted you for so many years…”
“Ajax-“ (your name)’s eyes widened when he finally removed the mask that’s concealed his face for over a decade. Ajax was half orc? (Your name) hadn’t a clue and she had been with him for so many years…
“I’m half monster, I thought you knew.” Ajax chuckled as his crimson eyes flitted over (Your name)’s frozen form. She was now a helpless lamb trapped in the maw of the wolf. “It’s why the other knights have been so cruel to me… why the maids avoid me like the plague and your father wanted to send me to war.”
(Your name)’s eyes can only take on his scarred and burned face in shock. Why was half the skin on his mouth missing and his tusks filed down? Who had hurt him so much that he didn’t confide in her, his best friend? What atrocities had he faced while she remained none the wiser?
(Your name) were shocked when he bent down to show you his teeth. His tusks were clumsily filed down to almost look like teeth but they were still rather sharp. “I did the tusk work, but they grow back rather quickly. The skin on my face is still healing from when there was an assassination attempt on you from your future husband’s concubines. Bastard was going to pour acid on your face.”
(Your name) reached up to trace the scars on his face while Ajax gave her a soft smile. “Ajax…”
“You’re the only one who’s never treated me like a monster… you’re so wonderful and kind.” Ajax moved his large, gloved hands to hold her hands. “That old king doesn’t deserve you. No one does!”
(Your name) blushed when Ajax brought her hands up to his lips to press tender kisses over each of her knuckles. Despite how badly Ajax wished to ravish her, he must keep his composure.
“You took this amount of damage for me?” (Your name)’s voice was barely above a whisper, yet it made Ajax melt into a puddle.
“Of course I did. I will do anything for you.” Ajax moved himself to crouch on the corner of the bed, his head in a slight bow. Yet (your name) could feel the burning obsessed behind his crimson gaze. “I am in love with you. Madly, deeply, entirely devoted to you and only you.”
Ajax grasped (your name)’s bare foot and brought it up to his mouth to press tender kisses across the top of it. “I will love you until my skin rots off my body and I am nothing but bones. Yet even death could not separate me from you for I will be in every corner of your life like a permanent shadow of protection. I will protect you with my entire being and soul. I will haunt and dismember your enemies if you so much as give them a glance of distaste.”
(Your name) felt her blood run cold when Jax gave her a bright grin that reopened a few of the stitches across his cheeks. The blood dripped down his face and onto her foot, but he merely lapped it up with his longer tongue. “Now tell me… is what I feel not love? I may not be a handsome prince but I swear I’m your knight in shining armor.”
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